Contemplating

Today I saw one of my closest friends a day after she gave birth. My usual cheerful and hyper "twin" wasn't so hyper when I saw her. She was weak and still with her pregnancy stomach. BUT, yes there is a but, she looks so happy and so radiant. Her mom actually gave me the chance to carry the baby. He was such a beauty and being the impulsive me,I also want one. But I cant help but think, am I ready to be a parent? Looking at my friend, she is not yet ready(as I see it) to be a parent before she found out that she was pregnant. The last time we talked about something close to being pregnant, was all about "Will sex hurt?", "How will you know if its time to jump into bed with your man?" topics. Oh yes we are a bit late on the topics about sex. And that friend of mine came full speed ahead with it and got pregnant. But when i saw her after she informed me that she was pregnant, she seemed ready to be a mom and, unfortunately a dad too for the next one or two years(her hubby travels for long periods). Or at least she seemed resolved to be ready to be a parent. This is something I just had to get off my mind. What if I get pregnant now, will I be ready? Will I be able to tell my mom first about it or will I hide it from her until my stomach is at the bursting point? With all that we see now on TV, Hollywood stars getting pregnant, giving birth, "working on being good parents", and then at some point they either break up or get married. What will happen to my dream of planning a wedding first and then working on being pregnant afterwards? But whatever fate I get i just hope that I will have a happy pregnancy.