Tears.Again

Today i cried. Again. At the office. While on a call.I just cant help it. I was trying so hard not to cry but i cant help it. I got fed up. I am not feeling well. My throat still got that stupid scratch. I don't know how or when or why but I am really down today. I watched Marley and Me thinking it'd be a good movie to take my mind off things. Well, it did. It took my mind of all the things at the present but reminded me that I was not able to mourn for my dog who died half a year ago. My dog who died without me, my dog who was buried while I am 3000 zip codes away. I feel bad. My dog had been with me at the time when I had to wake up 2:30am for my OJT, my dog who stayed with me while I silently cried at the back door, my dog who befriended so many people on the neighborhood but, scared so much more, my dog who played with and against my brother, my dog who fought for our other dog, my dog..my dog. I am sorry I wasn't there. *tears*